7th night..i stayed up until around 3am to finish my project yesterday..
so didn't have time for a update..
yesterday was a happy cum sad day..
i watched Secret with
him..
(the one i really love but i can't be with..)the show only last for 90mins..
it was too short for me..
i just wanna spend as much time i can with him..was happy because
he was by my side watching the movie with me..
was sad for the fact that i might not have another chance ever again..
='(from school, to lunch at food junction at century square, to movie, till waiting for bus at interchange,
i dare not look straight into
his eyes for more than 3 seconds..
to be exact, i dare not even look directly in
his face throughout the few hours with
him..
believe me, i wanted so much to just stare at
his face whole day and do nothing at all..
but i knew i would cry if i do that at this kind of situation..
and i could not cry in front of
him no more..
he said he would just walk away when i cry..so i forced myself not to..
except when i was touched during the movie..
and when the movie reminded me of our memories..in case anyone of you wanna know why both of us went for a movie..
we already agreed to watch it together before anything took place..
it was just a day in difference from our initial plan..
14thAug,our 4th month, was the plan..anyways, i am already delighted when
he still keep
his promise of watching the movie with me.. =)=)
but when will i have another chance again??hmnx..
tomorrow is considered our last day for this semester..
exams starting next friday and next week is study week..
no need for school..
following will be 1.5months of holiday..
i hate this holiday..
it doesn't come at the right time..
which means that i will have almost 2 long months not being able to see him..how am i gonna survive during the holidays?
i really have no idea..
please give me a temporary job to help me occupy my time..
i don't want just helping out at my parents' shop..
that wouldn't be enough..
to divert my attention away from thinking about him..i hate holidays..
without him by my side.. i'm really missing you like hell..
