82nd night..


i'm back to have a 2nd post of today..
so was psps class after break just now..
the teacher is quite funny, and looks like doraemon.. haha
i didn't notice him much 1week ago because i was too sleepy then.. =P
he tested us with some lame IQs..
then picked up a whiteboard duster and ask us to list out all the possible usage of it,
as creative as we could..
a guy came out with sanitary pad and sex toy.. =.=
then teacher asked me for my comment being the only girl in class..
no comment is all i can say..
everyone questioned me about being the only girl among the dirty-minded guys,
and whether i wanna change course..
why should i change because of them?..
i just have to ignore them when they talk about dirty jokes/stuffs,
or give them an annoyed smile when i'm being made fun of..
right?..
but i just couldn't stop myself from turning into a sad face when they mention 'your boyfriend'..
of course, i always followed with tears in my eyes..
say the 2 magic words and i will tear within 3 seconds..
try me..

after class was only 5pm..
i had too much time to spare..
before the last semester ended, i always hoped for early dismissal and usually am the 1st one to be disappeared after a lesson ends..
now, early dismissal is nothing to be happy of..
let alone teachers not coming for lessons..
i just hate them more than ever..
so i strolled to A1 to buy honey milk tea..
it was the auntie who served me..
she asked me 'where are the others?'.. referring to him and his friends..
i replied with a shake of my head and 'mei you le..'
she didn't get what i mean..
my eyes were already fulled with tears by then..
she said 'oh, they went off already?'
i just gave her a smile and went off with the drink..
by the way the whole conversation was in chinese..
i don't really want to admit that he has left me,
and don't want to break down while telling others about it,
so i didn't bother to explain anything..
yes, i nv wan to admit dat u realli hv left mi..
with too much time to spend, i strolled all the way to interchange..
bought bread at Qbread and then 28-ed home..
was being bo liao anyway.. we used to do dat, rem?
reached home and slept on sofa until 9pm for dinner..
then watched tv, blah blah..

was trying to listen to the french pronounciation just now..
it's so difficult for me.. i could hv asked u..
i wonder how i'm going to pass it.. if we r still tgt..
planning to skip the 2nd part of dfund lec tomorrow to go french lec instead..
so i don't have to wait 2 hours in the afternoon for my designated lec..
i would be sleeping during the dfund lec anyway..
haha
ok, stopping here..
bonne nuit~ (good night in french..) ^^

2:05 am

82nd day..
although i onli managed to steal a glance of u.. i'm much contented..

currently in school library..
having 2 hours of break..
the dfund tutor is absent and since following that is lunch break, so total we have 2 hours for that..
so..
following the majority, we lunched at design canteen again..
had chicken ceasar salad and cream of chicken..
total of $3 and i finished them all!!
hahaa
cause is like only veggie ar.. so still ok.. haha

now loading x-family ep50..
planning to at least watch 1 episode before going for next tutorial.. haha
ok ba.. i update again tonight..
^^

1:03 pm

81st night..


had lunch with mingkee at design school..
$2 of nasi padang..
but i only had $1 in my stomach.. haha
then i joined my classmates who were also there after mingkee left for her class..
i walked past u, i doubt u saw mi..
then ckt lab..
just did an experiment and finished in an hour..
so we had 1 hour free and we spent it in the engine canteen drinking milo and chatting..
their topic was on girls and stuffs not so related to me..
so i had my earpiece on and listened to radio..
blah blah..
suddenly an unwelcomed character walked pass us..
it was our computer programming teacher (T2)..
by the way, his lesson was next..
he told us that he has all our data, past results, even our parents' names,
blah blah..
then he asked whether i'm from hong kong..
so i just answered him yes..
and he continued by saying i'm a good student.. =.=
then the guys protested because T2 didn't say they are good students..
haha..

then computer programming lab.. i walked past u again..
we were sitted down and that irritating T2 suddenly called out "MA SIN YI!"
and i replied him with a "WHAT?!" dis time u saw mi..
lol was dat a smile on ur face greetin mi?
then he so bo liao come talk to me in cantonese..
just basic de la..
i didn't really responded anyway.. haha
don't know why today he kept calling out my name in FULL..
then i kept replying him with an irritated "WHAT?!"
i don't normally say that de lo..
he's just too irritating le la.. HAHA..
then today's lesson the T1 was not here..
so T2 was in charged, and he kept acting friendly, trying to joke with us..
yucks..

class ended before 6pm.. i noe u saw mi..
it was drizzling.. dat's y u came out of d lab onli after i had left..
had to buy some stuffs from ntuc so took 69..
i delibrately waited for an double deck.. so i can c u walkin out of sch..
but i still ended up standing on bus.. haha
strolled around TM before i got my stuffs..
and honey milk tea with mini pearls of course.. ^^

reached home and started munching on chips..
dinner-ed, blah blah..
i realised my school nights are so packed with tv shows!!
they goes from 8pm till the time my parents reach home, which at around 11pm-12midnight..
i like that!..
but too bad ten brothers has ended.. =(
anyway..
i shall get myself packed with more shows~ ^^
of coz i will love it more den anything if i hv u wif mi..
ok den..
shall prepare for an early sleep..
haha
hey, 2am is quite early for me now le lo..
haha.. i understand wat u wan n i will try my best to adapt to d changes..
so nights all.. =)=)
dat's bcoz i really love u lots..

1:38 am

80th night..




didn't manage to sleep longer..
1pm when i was forced to get off the bed for lunch..
today was bored as i lied on sofa to watch tv for the whole afternoon..
then fell asleep at around 6pm and up an hour + later to my computer..
wanted to revise on my french but then lost the mood of doing that..
haha..


hmnx.. so bored..
i promise myself that i will treat myself to a full body checkup when i won some cash from lottery..
but when will i win??
just being lame and naive here..
and don't think that i'm some kind of gamblers of lottery..
i only buy when i have some special numbers or when i feel like it..
haha..
i guess i will never have my checkup.. ^^


i was packing my last semester books from my desk to the cupboard because i don't have space for my new books..
then i ended up clearing other things from the desk and now i have so much spare space..
haha..
my mammy says it's a miracle that i'm doing that..
but i'm yet to clear other junks from all the cupboards and drawers..
it depends on my mood whether to clear them..
or maybe there will be another miracle someday..
lalalala..
=.=


i'm feeling so lost and empty..
oh, anyway that's how i have been feeling for the past 80 days..
i've found my 2 best friends..
i don't know one of them is a male or female..
argh.. anyway,
let me introduce my 2 best friend to you guys here..
A ROUND OF APPLAUSE TO MR/MS BABA AND MS MASHI!!!
i love my 2 buddies lots lots!!
they are always there listening to everything i tell them although mashi is forever meditating..
haha..
and baba is such a dearie for hugging!!
they never fail to be there accompanying me through the tough nights..
but sometimes mashi would be gone MIA when i woke up..
haha.. mashi is d onli thing u left for mi..
i still LOVE THEM LOTS NO MATTER WHAT!!!! ^^



ok.. i'm going off..
haven't bathe yet.. =P
so cya people.. ireallymissulots.. ilongforu..

1:15 am

79th night..
y can't i c u online although u realli unblocked mi??
is dis d fate dat i'm fated to hv?..
woke up at only 4pm..
i could have gotten off my bed later than that if not for my inconsiderate sister..
she delibrately turn on her speaker LOUD..
had bee hoon..
watched x-family, watched tv for the whole boring saturday..
what else?.. tried to help u search for vet course cop..
oh, ironed clothes.. at least u asked mi to help..
that's how boring my day is..
u thanked mi for helpin on msn.. i'm happy for dat..
i shall start revising my french tomorrow..
i need to buck up on that to get my CUs..
blah blah..
going to bed after finishing this episode of x-family..
i'm getting less concentrated when watching it..

so the effect of touching dried ice with bare hands is that the part of hand which came in contact with the dried ice will become numb..
and some sharp sense of pain will come when touching warm/hot stuffs..
that's how my fingers are feeling like..
i'm fortunate that i don't have my skin sticked with the dried ice yesterday..
ok, i'm stopping here.. u made mi happy for nth,
to my bed.. n den dashed all my hopes again n again..
and hopefully i can stop my tears by then..
nights all.. but i still loves u lots n will cont to hope.. imissu..

4:32 am

78th night..
i was beli happy when i saw u juz nw.. but not anymore when u asked mi to leave..
i am not even allowed to look at u frm afar.. i'm deeply hurt..
how should i start my post?..
hmnx.. school is stil the same..
bored and sleeping in lectures..
finally 1 week has passed..
weekend is here..
and at last i can sleep till late in the afternoon.. =)

so after school met meimei at her house..
then we took bus to TM.. u msged mi n ask mi to stop lookin at u n leave..
we bought lots of food with us into the theatre..
we got honey milk tea with mini pearls for me, pearl milk tea for her, 2 squid head from OCK for myself, don't know what from OCK for her, cheesy hotdog each and nachos for sharing..
haha
then both of us were munching on our snacks throughout the whole movie..
we created the most noise in the theatre because there were only a total of 7 people there watching..
haha
then the movie still ok la, some scary parts..
then quite confusing also de..
overall still passable.. ^^

after the show was before 4pm..
we still had time so walked around, looked for a cake meimei wanna buy for ah cai (her bf)..
then played in toy'r'us..
it is quite a common programme for bored and depressed people..
anyone might find some games or stuffs there to brighten ownself's day..
of course me too.. =)
yupx so we had fun playing there.. ^^

then was nearly time to go at around 5+pm..
so bought cake at swensen's then we went on our own ways..
i was waiting for 168 behind mrt station when lavinia called me..
she asked me to meet them at the bus stop near library..
so i took 27 one stop there..
she, together with adelin were waiting for rene..
waited for some time before rene reached and we got on to 168..
stood for the whole journey but we were still able to play some games..
haha..
reached woodlands, alighted, waited for sean..
he is forever SO slow..
then we went up to the place where the celebration was held..
not much people reached yet..
then we started eating, blah blah..
as time passed, more people reached..
soon, near 50 people occupied the area..
i was at the middle table with my old classmates..
there were namely lavinia, adelin, rene, sean, ryan, guoming and darren..
then all the others are jiaqing's friends from SP le... haha
we played 21 points and dai dee..
luck was with me and i got nice cards..
too bad just merely playing and no money involved..
if not i can win alot! haha!
then waited for the cake to be cut..
but the cake turned out to be a small one, and of course not enough for everyone of us..
it was an ice cream one..
took so so long for jiaqing to take photo with everyone in groups..
he sure has alotsa friends.. haha
all the photos are with jiaqing..
so will get from him someday then put here.. ^^

then it was already around 10.45pm..
so the few of us who came together, left together..
me and adelin took 168 back, blah blah..
11.45pm when reached home..
bathed, changed bedsheet, blah blah..

i feel myself so weird..
don't know why, i have bad feelings about myself..
i guess my condition is going from bad to worse..
hmnx.. just pure guessings ba..
haha..

i'm gonna sleep until the sun shine on my pigu..
if it doesn't, then too bad! so sad.. do u rem??
bye all!! HAHA

i'm mad..

2:57 am

1:07 am

76th night..


slept for 1.5+hrs of dfund lec..
was so bored and sleepy..
i survived both ckt and apel tutorial..
then as usual,
always kana dragged into the jokes of my classmates..
all of then demanded more GIRLS in the class..
then kept asking the care person which cds has the most number of girls then they wanna join that cds..
then always made fun of me la..
but i just treat everything as pure jokes..
they don't really affect me much..
whatever..

i was so thick skinned and kept following them around during the breaktimes..
so we went design school for lunch..
had beef steak..
and i was even so thick skinned to ask 1 of the guys to help me buy cause the queue was so long..
haha..
then i just stared at the table while waiting..
i was already fulled with only half of the steak in my stomach..
but i still managed to finish them off except for the beans..
haha
then went for my french class at 2pm..
omg..
i know NONE of the people there..
not even a familiar face..
everyone seemed to have at least a company there..
so i just isolated myself at a corner..
then it was a female teacher..
she started off the lesson by asking questions in french..
cause some of the students already attended the lectures..
so they at least know a bit of what she trying to ask..
then i was like SO BLUR and LOST..
no book yet, no notes, she never write on whiteboard..
then some of the things she only ask us follow what she said,
never even explain what the thing is in eng la..
aiya.. so i was so lost and then i teared..
was relieved when the lesson ended..
haix.. don't know how to survive through the semester..
after dat was tryin to locate u, but i couldn't.. cried..
after that lecture at 6pm..
the lecturer is humorous..
he goes slow in explaining the meanings and pronounciation..
at least better then the female de.. haha..
was already 7pm when we were dismissed after a french song..

so i headed home, eat dinner, watch tv, blah blah..
last episode of shi xiong di today..
so touching lo..
kept tearing..
especially the part when 'big boy' had to leave 'xiaolan' due to some reasons..
so sad lo..
wanna watch again sia..

gtg.. nights all..
I REALLI MISS U LOTX..

1:56 am

75th night..


argh!! the mouse is still giving me troubles!!
only can move right and left once in awhile..
so i must depend on the keyboard most of the time..
so irritating..
should get a new mouse tomorrow..
make me no mood go download songs and transfer to my mp3..
boo..

so anyway..
today's lessons quite bored..
i was falling asleep during the tutorials..
the teachers' talkings were so boring and plus i was sleepy..
so couldn't help lo.. haha
then had lunch with my group of classmates at mensa2..
only finished half of the kuay chap.. u were dere with ur frens..
suddenly felt so bloated.. u had kuay chap s well..
yupx.. do u noe i was dere? imissulotx..

class ended at 5pm..
then we went buy our lecture notes and textbooks all that..
so expensive la..
words so BIG and little, then still so THICK..
TP so eat money de..
boo..
then after that slacked at business school until 6pm when one of them left for his cds..
i went A1 and bought french caramel..
it has been more than 2 months since i last had it..
as usual, i couldn't finish the whole cup.. i wish u were dere helpin mi..
then when i was walking, i heard a song being played at 1 of the shops..
and i teared within the first line i heard..
the bolded line is the line which i heard and teared..
i need to go le..
sleeping after ironing clothes for my daddy..
bye all.. dis song is specially dedicated to u, my love..


Jerry 言承旭 - 我是真的真的很愛你

聽說感情要慢慢累積 由不得讓我放肆任性
怎麼我循規蹈矩 拼了命付出 你沒有回應
聽說感情難免力不從心 亦步亦趨卻不見蹤影
你給的眼神好比 大熱天裡的一道冷空氣

我是真的真的真的很愛你 以為付出了一切就非得有意義
你給的難題 我不曾逃避 誰叫我已愛你成性
總有一天可以用力緊緊抱住你
畢竟繼續的呼吸也要有一點目的
一身的傷痛 委屈的痕跡
在你的防備的眼睛裡 都是零

聽說感情難免力不從心 亦步亦趨卻不見蹤影
你給的眼神好比 大熱天裡的一道冷空氣

我是真的真的真的很愛你 以為付出了一切就非得有意義
你給的難題 我不曾逃避 誰叫我已愛你成性
總有一天可以用力緊緊抱住你
畢竟繼續的呼吸也要有一點目的
一身的傷痛 委屈的痕跡
在你的防備的眼睛裡 都是零

我是真的真的真的很愛你 以為付出了一切就非得有意義
一身的傷痛 委屈的痕跡 在你的防備的眼睛裡 都是零
我是真的真的真的真的真的真的很愛你.. do u noe?

1:34 am

74th night..


first day of school is quite a good start..
had 2 labs for the day..
started with ckt lab,
just doing some revisions from last semester..
all the while were crapping with the guys and suan-ing each other..
it is a female teacher for the lab..
who looks and sounds like from china..
so me, and another 2 guys were betting on which part of china she is from..
in the end she don't want tell us.. boo..
but she's a nice teacher.. ^^

then the second was computer programming lab..
combined with another class.. n u were at the class beside..
so eventually there are 2 teachers.. both are males..
let's address them T1 and T2..
my class is under T2, and i already don't like him since he started the lesson..
not only me la.. some other guys also..
it happened like this.....
the lesson started with some introduction and stuffs..
then we carried on with doing exercises from the book given, on the computer itself..
it was the first lesson for programming,
so of course we know little about it..
so we asked T2 some questions..
he answered us with 'follow the instructions and do on your own' impatiently..
so ok.. we followed the instructions..
then first time we do the thing wrong should be forgiven and he should teach us the correct way right?
then he started reprimanding us..
wth?
after that we asked him about what the sign means or other things..
then he just ask us to do and understand them ourselves while doing..
he see us do a bit wrong then say 'wa lao'..
wth la..
then i kept telling the classmate beside me that i hate T2..
so after that we asked T1 for help and he was patiently explaining everything to us,
and even telling us about certain things we will learn in this semester..
then the classmate beside me say "teacher (T1) i love you sia.. i don't like our class de (T2).. he not good de.. can change teacher ma?"..
lol..
and he not saying that quietly la..
almost the whole lab can hear what he said.. lol
then cause that classmate of mine a bit slow de..
then alot of things don't know..
so eventually he need someone to help him..
he called out "teacher teacher!"
T2 turned to him..
then he continued "not you not you (T2).. i want the other teacher(T1).."
LOL
he so cool sia.. like that also dare to say.. haha
so we were all laughing la..
then T2 came and knocked him on his head hard..
and started "what are you doing? redo redo!!"
lol..
so class was quite fun.. yupx.. ^^

after class i loitered awhile in school and then went popular at TM to get some stationery..
then buy bread and came home le..
dinnered and watched shi xiong di (ten brothers)..
was touched by a few scenes although i watched it before..
yupx..

hmnx.. tomorrow's class is in the morning..
i'm turning in soon after finishing the warm milo..
the weather is so cold now cause of the rain..

ARGH!! my mouse is given me problems..
can only go up and down the screen but not left and right..
so irritating.. need to get a new one soon..
gtg.. bye all..
AND THANKS MS JOLEEN LIM FOR THE LETTER~~LOVEYA!! ^^
c-in u happily wif ur frens bt i'm nt dere realli saddened mi.. imissulotx..

1:43 am

73rd night..


no mood for food today..
only had 1 meal at 6+pm..
and i didn't finish it anyway..

so school is reopening tomorrow..
i had such unbearable 2 months of holidays..
however, i felt that 2 years had passed..
i'm gonna make myself packed with school work or whatever from now on..
*hopefully..*
need to try have early nights and have at least 7hours of sleep everyday.. as u had told mi to..
my dark circles are getting darker than the pandas'..
haha..

hmnx..
just jia you ba..
don't know what to say le..
lucky my class start in the afternoon on mondays..
can sleep a bit late.. haha..
nights people..
hope to c u tml.. i miss u lotx.. jia you in ur studies.. muackx..

1:16 am

72nd night..


the day seemed so long for me..
reached shop before noon..
was so sleepy and i fell asleep after lunch of porridge..
then read 3 sets of newspaper of the day..
lian he zao bao, lian he wan bao, and xin ming ri bao..
then my steward cousin came again and i brought him to bugis junction foodcourt for dinner..
i had pepper lunch- curry beef with cheese..

it's nicer with the cheese..
they should have it long ago..
anyway..
i bought 2 jeans at a shop nearby..a grey skinnies..and a supposed-to-be 3/4 which the length is just at my knees..
i got them for $50, a discourt of $6..
i'm going back tomorrow to change the grey skinnies to size 27..
i got the 28, but it seems a bit loose..
omg, i was 31, at least 30 at the beginning of the year..
cool..
yupx..
i'm still short of skirts..
can't find the right length so it wouldn't be banned by my parents..
haix~

hmnx..
tomorrow is the last day of work..
and monday is starting school..
hope everything goes on fine..
i'm going off..
need to wake up early later on..
so nights everyone.. i'm still missin u badly..

2:07 am

71st night..
i hope to c u.. but on d other hand, i dun wish to..




i'm blogging 1st in case i can't later on..
my mammy says to reach shop at 11.30am tomorrow..
that's to say i need to wake before 10am..
whatever..
i'm getting sick..
my mammy keeps scolding me for being so skinny now..
she said i look like a refugee from africa..
haha.. i think so too..
ya..
then always quarrel with her because of that..
gtg.. i'm gone..
i wan to c u bcoz i realli miss u alot..i dun wish to c u bcoz i noe u nv wan to c mi again,
n i dun wan to c d annoyed face frm u when u saw mi.. i realli love u lotx..

1:36 am

70th night..


the timetable is out finally..
but now i do not wish to go school anymore,
especially after something happened just now..
i'm in a foul mood..
my mother always have to provoke me somemore when i'm already mad..
i don't think i can hang on any longer..
i feel like dying.. so much..
life is getting hard for me to carry on..
why not i be the one on headlines who got knocked down by cars and be dead?
at least people might saw my photo there and remember me somehow..
i'm getting mad..
real mad..
being emotional is how i am all day..
i just hate myself so much..
i envy d 1 whom u got lollipops for.. hu is d CERTAIN some1?
i'm died once again..

2:23 am

69th night..


i'd thought of interesting things to say before i came..
but now i'm not in the mood of joking around anymore..
i realised i'm talking to myself more than i ever used to be..
sometimes i just use my mind to communicate with myself..
but often i'm asking things out and answering them myself..
then i'll follow by a smile to myself.. or giggle sometimes..
lucky my phone rang in the evening and it was huimei aka sharon who gave me a call..
she offered me a 1 day job on friday..
just entertaining some kids..
of course i'm most willing to take up the job..
then after awhile her boss say no need le..
cause already found someone else..
then nevermind lo..
i have to work at my parents' shop anyway..
yupx..
so like that lo..
was finishing the pouches the whole day..
i think i made around 60..
i could have made more..
but that's all i have.. so no choice..
haha

my daddy is leaving on a flight to hong kong later on..
so will be working with my mammy for the following 4 days..
did i mention that before?
anyway..
so i guess i can't use computer until late late le..
i think i will be chased to sleep by her at latest 2am,
and forced to wake up at latest 10am.. 0.o
oh my..
both timings are so early for me..
i don't know if i'm able to sleep at 2am..
argh..
sianx..

going off le..
bye all..
lead me to the way back into love with u.. u're everything i ever want.. iLu..

2:32 am

68th night..

3:19 am

67th night..

3:04 am

66th night..
just a glimpse of u is enuff to make my day.. iLu..

went out at around noon time..
did something personal first before i headed cineleisure..

i went up to the box office at level 5 to get ticket for The Dead Girl at 3.40pm..
then i lifted down to B1 to have my lunch-

CHOCOLATE CRAVE CREPE!~!~!~
and not forgetting hawaiian madness.. ^^
i guess the cocoa exotic yesterday was too fulled of chocolate..
so i couldn't finish the crepe today..
i was nearly vomitting when eating the chocolate with brownie ice cream..
so i played with the leftovers and sitted until time for movie..i guess i don't have to explain this photo.. =)

i delibrately took the seat 2nd from the side.. i was silly to think dat u will
so my right seat was empty all along.. surprise mi by joinin mi for d movie..
haha..
honesty speaking, the movie is so bored!!
mainly because there were no subtitle so most of the time i don't know wth they are talking about..
and i really REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND THE STORY..
it was made up of a few parts focusing on different character..
and i just couldn't figure out the relationship among the characters..
the movie started with a woman and she found a dead girl..
so i thought the movie should be focusing on the dead girl since that's also the title, or at least should talk more about her, how she died and stuffs like that..
but then the story followed by talking about the woman, blah blah..
then.. aiya..
i just don't understand the storyline la..
in the end also never say about how the girl died..
and who really is she..
oh, maybe it did, but i don't understand..
just too messy in overall..
too many changes of scenes and i don't like movie like that..
make the whole show bored..
yupx..
so i don't really encourage anyone to watch it.. ^^
i should have choosen Resident's Evil rather than this..
wasted my $9.. =(

ok then after the movie i just went walking around..
spent much of the time at far east..
i don't know why i'm still walking there when the things there don't really suit me?
i realised almost the whole building sell the same kind of stuffs..
don't really have great interest especially when i'm quite broke..
i still need to save money on certain things..
but still spending on have-or-don't-have-also-can-de stuffs..
haha..
whatever.. ^^
but i still had my favourite from chippy..cheese sausage~~ hehe
meat is prefect for my stomach after so much chocolate stuffs..
haha..

took mrt back at 7.30pm..
my sis wanted me to be back so she can have her dinner..
and she even ask me to buy bubble tea from sweettalk simei because there is selling cheaper.. =.=
oh, i met adelin when alighted at tampines..
also from gongshang but only get to know her better at chung cheng..
she was sitting beside me at 3modesty..
both of us were like sleeping and crapping partners then.. ^^
oh oh.. i forgot the straws until i was on mrt back to tampines..
so i got them at the sweettalk outside..
i felt so silly.. =.=
then homed, and dinnered, and blah blah-ed..

tomorrow is working le..
will be bored but i have pouches to finish..
by the way i finished over 300 of them by now!
but only $30 earned..
so little~~ boo..
no choice.. jia you ba.. ^^

i finally got the photos from joleen..

3:23 am

2:21 am

no work today..

2:41 am

63rd night..


i'm blogging a bit earlier then normal because i was taught a lesson yesterday..
wonder why i missed out yesterday's post?
oh, actually i already typed my post..
BUT just when i was typing my last sentence,
the internet lost connection.. =.=
my mammy off-ed the modem..
I TOLD HER TO GIVE ME 5 MORE MINUTES..
SHE SAID 2 MINUTES..
AND SHE OFF-ED IT IN LESS THAN 1!!!!
%^&*(%e&*&%#*())(*&^%$#@#$%^&*((*&^%$#!!!!!!!
ARGH!!!
SO FLED UP WITH HER!
so as usual i SCOLDED HER..
yupx i scolded..
i know i shouldn't be doing that..
but all for she being so unreasonable..
she needs some scolding sometimes you know?
my daddy don't dare talk back at her..
ok, to be exact, he seldom talk back..
my sister is always too lazy to talk to anyone..
she can't even be bothered to answer to anything..
so i am always the bad character in the house..
i'm always heard quarrelling with her at night..
whatever..
i really don't understand her mindset la..
still in the old 80's or what?
it's not like i go out everyday..
but whenever i tell her i'm going out the next day..
she will say 'GO OUT AGAIN!! *blah blah*"
she ownself don't have friends,
and she's stopping me to have more friends..
i remembered in sec3 when my classmate was admitted to hospital due to a car accident..
so after she was discharge, the class planned to pay her a visit at her house..
so i told my mother about the whole thingy..
AND SHE FORBID ME TO GO..
she say people car accident i care so much for what?
WTH?
then during school days..
at night when i chat on phone or chat on msn, blah..
she will say everyday see in school, at night still talk what?
got so many things to talk about meh?
ask about eat already or not ar?
WTH?
no people wanna talk to her then she also don't let me talk to other people..
i'm so fled up about her la..
so unreasonable..
unreasonable about EVERYTHING under the sun..
when she do/say something wrong, she will never admit to it..
she then will push the blame onto other things unreasonably..
WTH?

i'm just finding things to say..
cause there's no one i can talk to about certain things..
so i say other certain things here to at least let me 'fa xie'..
i was crying on sofa yesterday after she off-ed the modem and i couldn't publish the post..
anyway was a boring day yesterday working..
today as well..
tomorrow off-day..
gonna rest, watch tv..
better post before she off..
cya all.. nights..
do u noe how much i miss u? i think onli myself n god noes..

2:37 am

61st night..


i had 2 miserable months..
the misery will continues..

i should be at work in the first place..
but i woke up late..
my mammy said she tried asking me to wake up..
i should have heard her shoutings even if i'm sound asleep..
unless i'm deaf..
nevermind..
so i was at home, she went instead..
fell back to sleep at 1+pm..
finally awake at 3.30pm..
had my lunch..
instant spaghetti and 4 chicken middle wings..
then watched tv.. blah blah..
oh, tomorrow i'm not meeting them for movie cause i need to go work..
and my air steward cousin will be here tomorrow night..
so having dinner with him.. yupx..
my dinner was just soup which my mammy made before she left the house..
but she cooked noodles for me when she came back..
i wanted mcdonald's de..
but forgot to call them buy back.. boo..

i have a strong craving for crepes!!
wanted to have some so badly..
lucky it will be my doubleC day on sunday..
so i'm gonna have chocolate crave crepe at crepe n cream at cineleisure basement on that day.. ^^

just now i caught a beatle..
it is its bad luck to 'fly'(run) into me..
i was watching tv and i saw a beatle flying across the tv..
i thought it was in the show..
and suddenly it flew towards me and landed on my desk..
i found it and used the usual transparent cover to trap it inside..
i then transfer it to the coffee table by using a paper as a base..
as i was holding it, it wanted to escape so much..
so i shook the whole thing as hard as i could..
i think it felt giddy so it stopped flying.. WAHAHA
i'm already kind by not cutting off its legs like was i used to do years back..

that's it.. asking me to let it off?
of course i wouldn't.. ^^
haha
got to go.. nights all.. IMISSU LOTX!!!

2:49 am

60th night..


went working today.
the weather was so cold the whole day cause of the rain..
super cold.. i kept shivering..
and i took my temperature just now..
less than 36degrees..
anyway my normal temperature is around 36.5..

ok..
then at shop continued with my pouches lo..
done 50+ only.. alot more to go..
yupx..
tomorrow working also..
hmnx..
don't know what to say le..
bored and moody..
bye.. it's near 2 mths since d day u left mi.. i miss u lotx..

2:06 am

59th night..
u kept runnin in my mind d whole day.. i miss u..

had lunch before i went out at around 3pm..
sheng told me to meet them at KFC..
so i went in and searched for them..
sheng was wearing cap so i didn't see him,
wee was backfacing me so i didn't recognise him too..
bing's hairstyle changed so much that i nearly don't know who the hell was there..
i was about to call sheng when i finally saw his face..
haha..
so went up, and they already finished their lunch and waiting for me..
oops.. yups i was late for like 30mins.. =P
then talked talked awhile then we went off to take mrt to orchard..

went to far east first..
they were shopping for clothes and i just followed and looked around..
then be bubble tea girl and helped bing and sheng buy theirs.. haha
i got my favourite cheese sauage with mashed potato from chippy as well.. ^^

wee's belgium chocolate ice cream tempted me so much la..
wanted to buy but already have the sauage le.. boo..
then we proceeded to wisma after they had bought their stuffs..
bing still couldn't find the type of polo tee he want so we continued to taka and then heeren..
in the end he bought no polo tee.. =.=
and i ended up buying 2 shirts which i didn't plan to buy at first..
they bluff me de..
we were at a shop selling both female and male shirts..
then i told them they buy then i buy..
bing and sheng already chose theirs and so i choose mine too..
i tried the 2 shirts i chosen and preparing to pay then they say not buying le.. =.=
cause the sizes were too big for sheng and too small for bing..
and i got the just nice size..
so like that lo..
2 for $30 for mine.. quite worth actually..
nice design too.. ^^

it was already 7pm when we finished shopping..
wee's friends didn't meet us in the end..
the 4 of us couldn't decide what to do next..
to eat, to go kbox, or to watch movie..
wasted so much time then decided on eating first..
wee suggested kobayaki at cineleisure basement so we went there..
i had beef udon..
not bad la..

8+pm after dinner..
decision to be made on the next programme..
were already at the junction outside then we decided on pool..
monster cue and the one at lucky plaza are like a bit far from there so we went back to cine and to kpool..=.=
walked so much today.. lucky i wore slippers.. ^^

only the 3 of us played except sheng..
won and lost.. i dunno how to play w/o u playin wif mi..
the cue i used seemed a bit weird..
i always felt a weight at the end of it and sometimes like someone trying to pull it away but obviously there were no one behind.. 0.o
maybe i was just imagining things ba.. haha..
then both sheng and bing tried to scare me by delibrately pulling the cue after i told them about it..
humph..

we left at 10pm and bought drinks at Cheers..
caramel frappuccino..
this couldn't be compared to those made fresh at the retail stores..^^
then we waited for 65 at the bus stop outside orchard emerald..
waited for quite long..
my first time seeing the digital board which shows the arrival time of the next bus..
i was like so surprised when they told me about it.. LOL
i came from the countryside.. i'm sorry~
=P=P

we were crapping, sending songs and took photo on the journey..
i asked bing to take his own photo using my hp to use as contact picture..
he spent so much time to get a satisfying one.. =.=
(clockwise starting from me) bing, wee and sheng..
11.30pm when we reached tampines..
they accompanied me waiting for 28 before they went for supper and their game of mahjong..
thanks guys.. ^^

scoldings when i reached home as usual..
i complained once again about how other friends can go out and reaching home late, enjoying themselves with friends but i can't..
i'm like always the cause of making others to end the outings early..
we could have gone kbox and sing until 1am or 3am just now if not of me..
i just feel so damn useless and ashame of myself despite being 19..
and oh.. going 20 in another 3 months..
my teenage life ending in just 3 more months..
still so tied down by my parents..
WTH?
this is one of the reasons why sometimes i prefer going out alone..
at least i don't have to tell others that "i need to go home soon.." and spoiling everyone's mood, changing plans because of me..
that's my life and i HATE IT..
they say meeting for Resident Evil: Extinction on wednesday..
will i go?
who knows..
i'm such a mood spoiler..


Backstreet Boys - Inconsolable

I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Felt like a scene on the cutting room floor
When I let you walk away tonight without a word

I try to sleep
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling
If you were here right now I swear I'd tell you this

Baby I don't wanna waste another day
Keeping it inside, it's killing me
Cause all I ever want
It comes right down to you, to you
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls
I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no
I've memorized the number so why can't I make the call
Maybe cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility

Baby I don't wanna waste another day
Keeping it inside, it's killing me
Cause all I ever want
It comes right down to you, to you
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I don't wanna be like this
I just wanna let you know
That everything I holding
Is everything I can't let go

Baby I don't wanna waste another day
Keepin it inside, it's killing me
Cause all I ever want
It comes right down to you, to you
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

Don't you know it baby
I don't wanna waste another day
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable i realli love u alot.. i swear..

3:47 am

58th night..


both me and joleen were late again and was already 12.45pm when we met..
=P=P
the event was held at level 3 at the outdoor..
we checked out the place first since her ou xiang, the Dj, whose name is jianwen, will only be there at 3pm cause of some delays..
then we went down to basement 2 to grab some food..
i didn't have anything before i came out.. ^^
there is a restaurant there which sells hong kong style of food..
i was attracted by the sticks of fishballs, and other types of snacks at the entrance..
i bought 3 sticks, and joleen got 4.. ^^

oh by the way..
most of the photos are with joleen cause my handphone was out of battery due to the forgetful me who forgot to charge the phone.. =.=
so i shall post all the photos only when i got them from her.. ^^

ok then we were thirsty and we bought our drinks from starbucks..
i got caramel frappuccino and joleen got vanilla frappuccino..
i think i prefer coffee beans's caramel drink to starbucks because coffee beans gives MORE CARAMEL~~ LOL =P=P
i just lOVE caramel la.. ^^

ok..
then we went back to level 3 and started staying at that area although it was SUPER HOT..
both of us were like sweating like hell..
there are sure many people like us..
anyway, so the event was organised to promote a website omy.sg..
there were free manicure, makeover, and some games..
i had a manicure done..
done by a monsoon manicurist..
but since it's free.. not so professionally done la.. haha..
then we keep playing the games available there..
actually in total there were like only 4 games..
both of us kept repeating playing, trying to get our hands on some prizes la.. LOL..
we got 2 free movie passes to 'My DNA says I Love You'..
i'll be meeting her to watch it.. ^^
then a poster of the movie as well..
for every participation in any game will be given a handphone strap..
we got like 13 in total.. LOL..
7 belongs to me and i gave them to my daddy to sell in the shop..
$1/piece.. LOL..
then we got something like a glove which has a shape of a hand.. *obviously..*
=.=
it sure does help alot as a fan.. haha
then i got a polo shirt for getting the golf ball in 3 different holes and only 3 tries for each hole..
we queued for 3 times before i got it.. HAHA..
then there was this big prize..
a trip for 2 to MALDIVES!!!
OMG lo.. i ALMOST GOT THEM!!
ok.. the game was like this..
3 participants will stand in a pool of balls..
1 of them was me, and the other 2 aunties..
actually i didn't intend to take part de..
before the game starts, a crew standing beside me asked if i wanna play..
i was still thinking about it for like just 2seconds..
then she told the host, which is jianwen, that i wanna play!
then he ask me up lo..
added that 'so young wanna go maldives le ar?' in chinese..
he chose the other 2 aunties de..
i asked joleen to go with me she don't want.. boo..
so me, with the 2 aunties, stood in the pool of balls..
the game was just find 5 balls which has a number of 7-5-8-5-8 on them..
before it started, i already saw 5, 8, 5, 8 around my legs..
then the aunties in front of me saw them and she started coming near me la..
game started and she koped 1 of it which i forgot which!!
luckily i found a replacement fast and got the 7 as well..
JUST WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO SHOW JIANWEN THE 5BALLS IN MY HAND,
THE OTHER AUNTIE SHOWED HIM JUST A SECOND BEFORE ME!!
AAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
so the auntie got the tickets.. SOBX!!!!
and as for the auntie who koped my ball,
she ended up with only a 5 and a 8 in her hands..
WAHAHAHA!! serve her right for koping mine.. LOL
but saded la..
just a second away from the tickets to Maldives.. SOB
='(='(='( haix~
we then left the sad place because it was almost time for our movie..
lust, caution..
hmnx.. how should i say?
both of us got headache because the screen kept spinning and spinning..
and i felt like sleeping as well.. lol
i don't really understand the story..
kanna cut a lot..
all the interesting parts were cut..
so in the end the outcome so boring.. boo..
haha.. but don't want affect the mood of those who wanna watch it la..
so.. to each his own.. ^^

before the movie were trailers of some 'coming soon' movies..
there was one starting with a fairytale background,
a princess and a prince..
when i was about to tell joleen "now what century le still got fairytales de ar?"..
then the scene changed to the modern world when the princess fell into a well..
THEN SO NICE LA!!
both of us were determined to watch it when it's up the huge screen!!
and the title is 'Enchanted'..
MUST WATCH!! interesting..
the female lead looks so much like the princess in fairytales.. haha
^^

so after movie we went hunting for a place to have dinner..
we couldn't make up our mind so we walked up and down..
in the end we decided on Thai xpress because she has the discount card.. haha
we ordered a tom yam soup each, fried squid, green curry with chicken and kai lan..
me first time eating there..
so didn't know the taste of the tom yam soup couldn't be trusted by its colour!
it looks harmless but whoo! so spicy de..
we were so fulled and was already 10+pm when we left..
we separated on our ways home at dhoby gaunt station..
will meet up with joleen again soon for our movie de!!
preferably xinrou mei can join us..
it would be more fun!! ^^
so looking forward to the next outing with the girls..
LOVE THEM LOTX!! =D=D of coz i love u more den anything else..

tomorrow will be going out after begging my mammy for such long time..
sheng asked me to go kbox with him, bing, wee and wee's friends..
maybe they know i wanna go kbox?
haha..
yupx so i meeting them..
so long didn't go out with them le..
hope wouldn't feel awkward ba.. haha.. ^^
so will post the photos of the day in the next post ba..
cya guys.. i miss u..

4:05 am

2:47 am

56th night..


went to a warehouse at the bedok factory area with my mammy to look for a desk for daddy..
then cause we don't know where the exact place..
in the end we walked one whole big round under the hot sun.. =.=
then ended up getting nothing from the warehouse cause too expensive.. =.==.=
wasted our time.. boo..
then went to bedok sheng siong and got so many veggies..
brought them along to bugis..
then worked, blah blah..
my daddy was also there..
it should be a half day-off for my daddy de..
so he was allowed to sleep for 2 hours there.. lol..
then blah blah..
he woke up at 7+pm then i went sheng siong again but this time at little india there de..
bought 8cans of diet coke only.. =.=

work ended at 10.30pm today..
and we only had our dinner then at a chicken rice store behind bugis junction..
but i had duck noodles.. haha
by the we reached home already 12midnight le..
today so late sia..

hmnx..
tomorrow i'm staying at home..
and saturday i'm going out with joleen~
too bad xinrou mei is not free to meet us..
we're going to vivocity to visit joleen's ou xiang, [edited^^]
and to watch lust, caution (se,jie)..
we already booked the tickets online le..
so must be there.. haha..
the movie will last 148minutes..
it's kinda long le..
but then sad to say that the movie was altered to meet the conditions of NC16..
i don't know how to say la. haha..
yupx.. so like that lo..

going off le..
cya people.. do u feel how i'm feelin?.. imissu..

3:11 am

55th night..




was at home the whole day..
woke up at only near 4pm..
then had my lunch..
watched tv with baba in my arms until i had my dinner at 9pm..
on-ed computer..
stared at it.. watched x-family ep39..
chatted with my chung cheng friends..
at least there are people talking with me today compared to none yesterday..

working tomorrow..
so bored..



飛輪海 - 不會愛



只好讓禮物安靜躺在我口袋
遠遠看著你跟他快樂聊到笑開
當友情兩字不足形容我情感
心情都隨妳轉彎
耳機它輕輕吻我耳朵 愛情歌聽不完
適合我們的從不是浪漫


你不會愛 我的愛 我明白
你的最愛 那一塊 哪天我才存在
我不會愛 你的愛 受傷害
所以寧願 安靜的等待

只剩下冰冷空氣陪我一整晚
寂寞卻多到塞車根本無法動彈
一翻身我在半夜突然就醒來
夢裏你的唇柔軟
耳機它輕輕吻我耳朵 愛情歌聽不完
適合我們的從不是浪漫

你不會愛 我的愛 我明白
你的最愛 那一塊 哪天我才存在
我不會愛 你的愛 受傷害
所以寧願 安靜的等待

愛你我慢不下來 沒有哪一天例外
跟自己比快 我會趕上你未來

你不會愛 我的愛 我明白
你的最愛 那一塊 哪天我才存在
我不會愛 你的愛 受傷害
所以寧願 安靜的等待

不怕空白 我繼續等待
yes i will continue waitin for u..

2:26 am

54th night..


hmnx.. just another day at work..
nothing much..
finished 170 pouches in total now..
waiting for my mammy to give me more to do..

i suddenly miss school so much..
i missed going school..
i used to hate going school a few years back..
but somehow i changed..
i started disliking long holidays since don't-know-when..
now i dislike it more than ever..
i like the feeling of waking up early in the morning,
rushing myself to get myself prepared..
especially when i was still in chung cheng..
i was like running at least 200m to school after alighting from the bus every few mornings..
that was the easiest period of time when i would be late for school..
or mostly reached school on time just before the gates are closed..
but counting the times i was late for school and punished,
it was an average of 2 times each semester..
not much actually.. haha..
yupx..
school was really fun at chung cheng..
although there were times when i would quarrel with my classmates,
a time when i was called for councelling..
the many times i cried in class..
the many unhappy things i faced there..
especially the times i spent in principal's office,
begging Mr Yue to let me stay in chung cheng..
but i'm really contented to be onced a chung cheng-ian..
chung cheng really made my life brightened up quite alot..
but sad to say, chung cheng was not in my choices when we chose our secondary schools before PSLE..
it was my mammy who forced me to put that when i was given a chance to choose again..
i was so relectant back then..
but woo.. thx mammy for the forcing.. ^^

i will turn my sad day to a happy one when i think of chung cheng..
the times i spent there..
so i shall write about it now to stop myself from feeling sad.. yes,i'm sad nw..
you guys can stop reading from here if you have no interest in reading about chung cheng.. thx.. ^^

i love the 'zhong zheng jing sheng jiang' or 'chung cheng spirit award' (direct translation)..
there are many events organised to bond the classes together for the award..
so the pupils in a class will all come together and do things for the events so the class will win the award..
yupx..
i remember decorating a tree for chinese new year in sec 1..
but we didn't get anything because it was not nicely done.. haha
then we would decorate our classroom, changing a theme every term..
there was a Bazaar by the Lake in sec 2..
every class was supposed to set up a store on that day and earn money for charity or needly student fund or something like that..
so my class decided on making a game store, blah blah..
i had so much fun at that period of time because we people would stay in school until at night to do our game preparations..
it really bonded our class together alot.. =D=D
then we had a performance which required creativity..
i didn't really participated in that but i think i helped out in doing the props.. ^^
we were required to wear ethnic clothes on racial harmony day..
the award will be given to the class with the most number of different types of ethnic clothes, blah blah..
my class always missed the award.. haha..
there were many other events at chung cheng..
oh, interclass competitions, talentines..
all those were so memorable..
and the biggest event in chung cheng (in my 3 years there)..
was no other than the Lake Odyssey!!..
it was a play which was held in Esplanade..
as a celebration for the 65th year of chung cheng.. (if i did not get the year wrong..)
i'm still so elated that i participated in the play although my role was only a backstage crew..
i volunteered myself in the event because i always wanted to experience a big event like that..
the rehearsals, preparations, and the actual performance lasted for a good 4months during my sec 3 time..
it was the main reason why i had done badly for exams and eventually got kicked out of school/forced to transfer out of chung cheng..
my parents were so mad about me participating in it and neglected my studies..
oh whatever..
anyway i really enjoyed myself in the whole process of it..
i helped in doing the props, rushing them till late at night with the other backstage crews..
i knew many friends through it..
i got to know what about being a backstage crew,
know abit about acting when the main lead was absent during rehearsals..
know about wu shu and grew interest in it..
i even went to wushu competitions and volunteered to help them record results..
and i nearly became the so-called manager of the wushu team.. lol
yupx..
i felt myself so important even though i was only a backstage crew which shouldn't be seen by audiences..
i kept running around the theatre, pretending to be busy although i had nothing to do actually.. lol
that was SO MUCH FUN LA..
you might never know the strong feeling of satisfaction i got when all the hard work were paid off as the audiences applaused..
i really never regretted being in the crew although my results were greatly affected..
i think i might only regret if i didn't take part in such a great event.. =D=D
thanks lake odyssey for fulfilling my dream.. ^^

ok, back to in school.. chung cheng..
i usually leave school after the sun set..
maybe because of trainings..
but mostly because i just liked staying back late in chung cheng..
i would always have playmates for basketball, volleyball, and other games..
i also liked being in the class, sleeping or chatting with friends,
or maybe sometimes doing some works.. blah blah..
i remembered in sec 3 when i had basketball trainings in saturday mornings,
i would go to 3modesty classroom and stay there to clean the classroom or sleep when i was early for training..
i always knew the class would be back to the messy state on mondays..
but i just liked doing that.. ^^

so much fun in chung cheng..
too much for me to list them all out here..

oh of course i didn't forget being in springfield for 2 years..
but i just feel that i didn't really enjoy much in that 2 years compared to the 3 in chung cheng..
that was just so much in difference..
maybe i would be happier now if i completed my secondary level in chung cheng rather than in springfield..
but i must admit that i made good and nice friends in springfield..
and that i might not even pass my O level if i took it in chung cheng..
argh.. i don't know what i talking about..
not good in using my words..
can understand then understand..
if cannot understand..
then don't understand lo.. haha..

staying at home tomorrow..
i have things to do..
just that i don't know if what i'm doing is worth something or not..
if they don't worth..
i also don't know la..
aiya...
getting bad in my english.. haix..
so please pardon me for the poor english in this post..
i want school please..
bye all.. i think i noe wat caused it.. i miss u..

3:45 am