then i came back tampines and went to the TM cinema again..
i stoned there for quite some time..
whether to still watch a movie or not..
it was already 9pm..
by the time i finish a movie would be near 11pm..
and i don't know what to watch..
everything seemed so unfamiliar to me..
suddenly i was not in the mood of sitting down and looking at the huge screen alone with no one i know beside me.. ya.. u're not beside me anymore..
so i just dropped the idea and start walking around tm again..

there are mooncakes selling everywhere..
reminding me that zhong qiu jie is arriving..
reminding me that i'm just gonna stay home or work this zhong qiu jie..
reminding me that i will not be watching the full moon with anyone other than just myself..
reminding me that.. u're realli gone frm mi..

then i recalled that my mammy asked me to buy bread and eggs before going home..
so i went down to ntuc..
saw chicken wings begging me to buy them.. so i bought 1 piece and that was the 1st part of my dinner..
after buying the things i then need to think what to get for my dinner..
i had a craving for honey milk tea with mini pearls plus XXL chicken chop..
but sad to find that shinlin was already closed for the day..
i still thought the time was early..
so i stoned there..
walked pass long john's..
thinking of getting the cheap combo 1..
but i still had the craving for honey milk tea..
but if i get honey milk tea i can't buy combo 1 because a drink is included..
den if i don't buy combo 1 and get honey milk tea instead,
what else should i eat?
i kept thinking and thinking and thinking..
undecided of what i should eat..
i forever so undecisive..
so i let it to fate to decide what to eat..
i told myself that if mini pearls are sold out for the day, i will get combo1..
so i queued at sweettalk..
and start thinking what else to buy if i get my honey milk tea with mini pearls..
queued for quite some time..
and my answer was 'sold out'..
so i just went into long john's and bought combo1.. i didn't want to think anymore..
if i carry on thinking, i might even drop the idea of eating anything..
that's how i am.. and i hate it..

so i took 28 back, blah blah..
after eating, i bathed and here i am online..
was watching x-family episode 27 just now..
no mood for 28..
tomorrow is working day..
but think will leave the shop when my mammy reaches..
don't know.. see how..

i was reading my message history with you on msn..
i teared.. reading my past happiness makes me hate myself more..
i did it to myself..
but do i deserve it?
i don't know..