101st night..
i dunno how long more do i hv to lie to myself..

here to update before something crops up later on..
it was just another boring sunday..
but i had catherine on the phone with me for 45minutes in the afternoon..
^^ i tot d call was frm u..
tv-ed, pouch making-ed, bo liao-ed..
once again, i have no mood for any revision..

this is a poem adapted from clare yau's blog..
a poem which she wrote it herself..
i find it nice, and expressed my feelings as well..
and i cried as i read through it..
too bad that i don't have such talent in literture..
maybe i should try writing one..
enjoy..
i realli do love u alot..
The sun has fell,
I wanna rest well.
Yes it's time to sleep,
I told myself not time to weep.
I miss your touch so much,
So bad my stomach lurched.

I close my eyes,
And I hear my cries.
I hear you singing,
I thought I was dreaming.
I hear you whistling,
So much it just gets annoying.
I see so many of you everyday
It makes me feel like I'm crazy.
Fantasizing you will be mine,
I threw that idea to the back of my mind.

Bittersweet memories,
Etched somewhere in my biological diaries.
I stroll around aimlessly,
I cry alone at the back alley.
It hurts so much I reprimand my heart,
Why does it refuse to budge.

I walk the route we use to take,
It was such a big mistake.
I see us strolling hand in hand,
I saw our shadows reflected by the lamps.
I see us laughing,
I see us hugging.
I see the lips I so wanted to kiss,
The many chances that I have missed.
Then you disappear,
Like as if you were never near.
So I was left alone,
To take the my own journey home.

Questions left unanswered,
But why should I fluster.
Words left unsaid,
Why am I crying for your sake.
It's better this way you say.
The words that repeated as I lay.
Convinced that your decision will not revert,
I will still be here, but,
Hurt.

1:26 am