156th night..argh!! STRESSED!!!!but well, i'm stressed by my own self..
-- i took up the duty of tuitoring my cousin thinking that i can do it but knowing very well that i'm not up to it..
so it added an extra burden on my back since i have to do some revision on the secondary work before the tuition..
-- having a mindset that "boat reach bridge head naturally straight", i always leave my assignments until the last minute before deadline..
thus now that i'm having 3 assignments to be handed in 1 each on mon, tues and wed,
i seriously have not much time to finish them all..
-- adding to the work at school, i still have work at my parents' shop..
i am such an idiot..
i was the one who booked the air tickets for my daddy,
and yet i forgotten that he's leaving later at 6+am..
=.=
i was still happily thinking that i can spend my sunday at home to finish as much assignments i can..
but well, i can't..
i have got to follow my mother to the shop and spend the whole day there working since my sister is not here..
yes, i can bring my papers there to do..
but nope, there isn't a good place for thinking due to the noisy music from the shop beside..
so no choice..
and oh ya..
for mon until wed, i've got to go to the shop after school to work as well..
the timing IS SO BAD!! =(
but i can't leave my mother there alone..
haix..
but thanksfully my monday morning is free from lessons..
so i'm planning to go school at 9am to do them until around 1.30pm..
haix~~~
i can only blame on my own stupid-ness and laziness.. =(=(
so anyway, went to my cousin's house for tuition..
i'm going there instead of she coming over here is so that i can have my dinner there as well..
they have a maid and she wouldn't mind cooking my share as well.. ^^
last week the maid asked me what i wanna eat and i replied 'pizza' without a second thought..
and she really did make pizza today!!
LOL
so cool la.. go there can have different type of food which my mother don't make de..
oops!!
but my mother's cooking is great de lo!!
and at least the maid doesn't make nice soup unlike my mother..
hehe.. ^^
argh!! how how how???
i really think i'm gonna flunk my year 1..
i absolutely have ZERO mood for studying..
i go school for the sake of spending my time, not for studying..
no motivation, no goal, no anything..
people ask me why i'm studying this course, what does this course leads me to for career and what i'm gonna do after studies..
i know not the answers myself..
repair aeroplanes??
me myself wouldn't even dare to take the plane which i repaired myself..
hahaa..
but don't laugh, it isn't meant to be a joke..
that's the end..
bye..
my only motivation comes frm u.. i've lost myself since d day i lost u..
