299th night..


i was so emo the whole day..
i punched at least 3 guys on their arms today with the strength enough to make them shout 'pain!'.. lol

after paper, lunched at business..
why not design? cause we went there before the paper already.. =.=
anyway, around 3pm, we were at library studying..
oh! to be exact, they were studying, but not me.. =)
i was chatting away with CaiJun, 1 of the 4 new girls in my class..
yes yes, finally i have a friend whom i can talk to in class.. HAHA =.=
she was telling me about her past relationships, about her ex who is also in engineering..
then it was when i got alot more emo-er..
i was already emo until i kept hitting walls before that..
then our chatting stopped when she began her revision with the others..
so i isolated myself from them, reading a novel which CaiJun had, about relationships, again..
and i got MORE EMO-ER..
i teared in the process..
i didn't want them to know i was tearing, so i went toilet to wash up..
came back, and i sat at the path in between racks of books..
i just like sitting/squatting on the floor rather than on chairs..
i was already feeling better then, just resting my head on my knees..
but however, still emo-ing, and forcing my tears not to drop..

then it was the best part..
CaiJun came with another guy, Yu Song, and asked me why i sitting down there..
i didn't know why my tears just kept flowing down after he asked.. =.=
ya, maybe i'm like that..
when i'm not in good mood, and someone come asking me what happened or whatsoever, i'll just start crying.. haha
so anyway, i cried like nobody's business..
they kept prompting me about why i cry, and maybe they guessed it right..
actually no need say also will know de la.. haha
i felt like asking them to leave me alone but no words came out of my mouth when i cries..
then CaiJun tried to console me with all the love's theories, blah blah..
those things i've heard umpteen times, yes i know every single of them..
i even told them to myself before, and repeatedly doing so..
i felt like such a failure.. such an idiot.. awwww
then eveyone came asking why i was there crying..
haix, a 20years old crying like a baby..
they must be laughing at me.. haha

so it continued for like half an hour or more..
i went back to my seat, and that silly Yu Song came saying sorry to me..
HAHA
this isn't the 1st time he's apologising to me..
cause i had records of crying in canteen before..
and they always were followed after him asking me 'what happened?' or related questions..
LOL
then he felt so guilty about it la!!
and now it's me feeling guilty because others will blame him for making me cry.. lol =X
*sorry Yu Song, and thanks CaiJun for the consolations and the hug.. ^^*

i left library at 6pm and they carried on their revisions..
felt better after sleeping from 7-9pm, plus ep 11 and 12 of FH2.. ^^
and oh oh, not forgetting my caramel milk tea with added pearls.. =D
easily contented? maybe..
but i don't have the mood to study..
and i haven't start yet..
it's 3.30am now, paper is at 9.30am.. LOL
i'm certain that i will flunk the paper later on..
oh, whatever, procrastinating in progess..

ok, i'm done with my long + boring post..
read up abit before heading to bed..
take care people.. =)=)

ps: i pity my innocent knuckles.. i think i'm violent..

2:36 am